I’m not ready yet.
I’m not ready yet-
This used to be one of the lines on repeat in my head, it would creep in at the most inopportune times. Usually right when I had made a decision to try something new. I began to notice that this thought was preventing me from starting and committing to new things and I wanted to figure out how to change it.
Lucky for me, I enjoy learning about my patterns, habits, thoughts, and what makes me…me... I have read books, gone to counseling, hired a life coach, talked to a spiritual director, spent time in prayer, practiced meditation, had homeopathic consults-and everything in between! All of these things have given me insight and awareness into what makes me tick. Along the way, I also learned where the lie, “I’m not ready yet” came from and how to stop it from taking up precious space in my head.
When I tell myself I’m not ready yet…it’s a way of stalling... and I am stalling because I don’t think that I will succeed and I do not want to fail. Who likes to fail!? It has played out in many different ways and in many different areas of my life over the years.
I really want to be a runner. I’m not ready yet.
I will lose some weight and get in shape first, then I will be ready to run!I want to start eating healthier. I’m not ready yet.
I will read 10 000 blogs on healthy eating, purge my fridge and pantry, grocery shop, and meal prep, then I will be ready to eat healthier!I would like to be a Spiritual Director. I’m not ready yet.
I should read the whole bible first and know more about God and Christianity. I should probably get a degree in theology while I’m at it.
The truth is, I don’t think I ever feel ready to start new things. And life is flying by!
So now, when there is something that I want to do...I do it! I just start. Right where I am. I take one step in the direction that I want to go.
If you can relate to any of this, I hope that you know that there really is no time like the present.
You are ready too! We do not need things to be perfect to begin, and we do not need to be perfect, we just need to begin.
“The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step”
-Lao Tzu
